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WHAT am I? Not who.

​Beneath the veil there's a human trying to fulfil her purpose. I'm a deep thinker. I feel ancient with a childish twist. A matured whisky paired with lemonade.

All in my perfect world I'd need to share about myself:

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I don't like chocolate cake
I cut my own hair (usually, I also have a very lovely hairdresser)
I ask WHY rather A LOT
I'm an empath
I value peace and harmony over all worldly things 
I'm obviously a Libra
I love the sound of the rain pouncing
And, quite typically cliche, the smell of it quenching parched land
I grew up in the countryside 
The dirty Earth has my heart
But NOW I bask in Big Smoke dweller style
In London 
I write
I take pics
I laugh at my own jokes
I enjoy the simplicity of life
Because I think being here is what you make it
And yet, quite candidly I know I'm a conduit of my creator
If only my ego would shush the cry to critique and control
Beyond all the above, below
I am, quite simply put
A SOUL.


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And the rest (et al) that may be beneficial to share:

When I look at the choices I've made throughout my life they've revolved around my own healing. I'll use this word 'healing' but I prefer evolution/self-development. 

I have a Bachelor of Science degree in Nutrition. I began restricting and controlling my diet in my teens and had a terrible relationship with food - I wanted to know everything science had to offer. Now, from my understanding, the body knows exactly what it needs IF attuned to hear it. The equation of 'energy in = energy out' is complete nonsense to me because what happens in the middle (metabolism) is what matters most. 

I've practiced Yoga for over half my lifetime and I'm still terrible at it. If only I could insert an emoji. I've practiced making shapes, breathing techniques, chanting, meditation, 'conscious living' for years, and I'm still mastering them. I'm fortunate enough to live in London where some of the best teachers are available and one, I practice under the eye of remotely (online) from my living room or wherever the mat gets laid down. I practice at Astanga Yoga London practicing some of Advanced A series (third) and Iyengar Yoga with Claudia Dossena and Alaric Newcombe. Alaric also taught me Pranayama during the pandemic and I may occasionally drop into an online class + chip in on conversations in his WhatsApp group. I was a Yoga teacher for many years after moving to London as school teacher. I did a PGCE (Post Graduate Certificate in Education) because the science of food did not sit well with me and honestly, I did not want to spend my life selling supplements. Eating is a body + mind experience. Both need attention to eat well. My mantra for eating is "Eat the food to feed your spirit" which is actually a lyric from an Abra song. But I had to do something so, I became a school teacher. Then a Yoga teacher. I enjoyed many years as a Yoga teacher but I sit on the fence between styles. Yoga is a tool. Yoga is not a religion. I'm not religious either. Spiritual yes, but the names, the stories, the teams (lol) are largely human invention. IMO. But yes, there is a power much greater than me. I'm on its undefined unfathomable side.

Let's fly forwards to the pandemic. I suffered a health issue - my eyelids blocking with oil. I maybe had a spiritual awakening. Yeah, I'll say that. I felt loved, really loved and this is the part that's the messy bit that's rarely talked about - all my suppressed trauma bubbled up to the surface. Healing is finding light despite the shadows, hugging that hurt part of yourself and letting it all go. Acknowledging it then moving on from it. What happens to a person does not define them, how they respond does.

I HATE WASTE. I will do everything in my power to reduce it. Materialism sickens me. War disgusts me.  

I love music. Sometimes more than conversation.

I enjoy wearing my stripy clown pants. Humour is medicine.

I'm a little bit obsessed with hoovering.

I am a creative thinker and problem-solver. I will fix up before buying new. As a Yoga teacher, I relished clients moving on from me - it meant I'd done my job correctly.

Knowing myself is intrinsically linked to my connection with others. As I evolve, so do you.